Emotional and Physical Pains

Detox Tip #2: Cry a river, get tonsilitis, fever, headache and colds as a result.

The past week has been hellish. Gim left for Dapitan on Monday and he’s not coming back until the end of April. The day before he left, I buried myself in his arms and cried for hours. Not the soft sobbing, silent type of crying – but the hagulgol type – loud, wet, heartbreaking sobs.

I was strong for most of March, I cheered him up while he moped around. But that last day, it just hit me so hard and I could not stop my tears. That night my nose was clogged and I could not sleep. It was a miracle I was able to wake up early enough to bring Gimmi to the bus terminal. I had developed colds and a fever. I lost my appetite (and trust me, normally, that’s impossible for me) and if not for debate practice, I would totally not get out of bed anymore. *Sigh*

As if things could not get worse, at the peak of my illness, I got my period and had to endure terrible stomach cramps and sanitary pad rashes (damn I want tampons!!). *Heavier Sigh*

It’s been six days since Gim left and my illness has abated, too. What’s left is a bit of a dry and itchy throat but it’s not so bad. My period has just begun so what’s occupying my mind most of the time is the discomfort I get wearing pads. I chafe and cut. I’ve tried different brands, same result. I think I’m allergic.

I really wish, here in the Philippines, I had an alternative. Like tampons, or some things I’ve read recently, cloth nappies and menstrual cups. Or better yet, like not having a vagina!!! I wonder how many women secretly wish they were born men. I think God is a man. ‘Coz if he knew how much we women suffer just by being ourselves, he would have made us different!

So how is this post related to detoxification? Well, crying is good. Even if one bout can become a painful 5-day process. It releases stress, at the very least. Makes you lose weight, at the most. Menstruating is good, too. It releases old eggs and old tissues. And every month, you find out that you’re not pregnant. If that’s not great news, what is?


  1. i wish i had the guts to wear tampons. they sell them here but i’m scared to use them. they would really come in useful for when i have swimming lessons on the day you have your period, for example. well you’re coming here in june so you’d have access to tampons then.

    you’re right, menstruating is good. that’s why i don’t mind paying 500 bucks a month for 10 tiny pills that will ensure i get my visitor monthly, and not semi-annually! you should consider yourself so lucky to be regular!

  2. hey heids if u DO decide to wear tampons, regularly change them every 2 hours ok? the wear of tampons can sometimes result in TSS, something that means bacteria up your bloodstream i think, gim says, and it can be fatal.

    so you’re still taking hormone pills? aha! now i know why your skin is glowing! it’s those pills! hehe. hormone pills have been proven to clear up skin disturbances like pimples, and if you don’t have any, it just makes your skin look really clean and healthy. i used to take them as contraception, but i stopped because it was costly and i felt it made me gain more weight. of course now that i think back maybe i was just really eating more. hehehe.