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The Real Me

Posted on 23 September 2013 by Flisha

I am on a mission to lose weight. Whether by good old fashioned exercise or a healthy diet!

Today I am past the 200 lb mark, can you believe??? I think it’s the heaviest I have been in my life. It’s too bad because I already attained a slim body once. But that was a long time ago. Back in college, when I was active in multiple school clubs and organizations, and we had a physical education class twice a week, and I was doing weights and cardio. I was 18 and on the hunt for a boyfriend. So I got thin to get noticed. I did get noticed by the boys, but not only that. I got compliments from grade school teachers who mentioned they barely recognized me but that I changed for the good. My college teacher nicknamed me “Pretty Girl”. I got to be featured in a poster advertisement for our school. I easily got licenses and government IDs because the staff would treat me like a VIP (i.e. they let me cut the line hehe!). I was offered to model nude (no, I did not take the artist up on his offer!). My grade school crush (the very first) finally said hello to me and we even had a long conversation in a chatroom (I still feel giddy when I remember it!). I got along well with people and had the best of friends. And of course, I eventually fell in love with the most wonderful person in the world. They say high school is the best time of your life. But for me, it was really college.

I started putting on the weight a few years after graduation. I was working a desk job. My boyfriend had a motorcycle so he would ferry me wherever I wanted. I did less and less of walking, more and more of sitting.

Until today when no one in his right mind (save for my boyfriend) would ask me to pose nude. Haha!

I am pretty happy with my life now. I have a well paying and stable job. I still have my loyal and faithful boyfriend (thank God). I have lovely pets (my poodle, my hamster, my fishes). Some of my closest friends are spread over the globe and some are back home; though it gets lonely in my new home, I am grateful for my old pals.

Still, I feel lacking. I feel that the me that people know now is vastly different from the old me, the real me. Today I am reserved and an introvert, whereas before I was carefree and confident. I think it all boils down to how I feel ugly, and big, and fat – all these negative feelings I have about myself, I project onto people, and how can I expect people to like me if I do not even like myself. It is very superficial. I know it is very vain of me. However it is the truth. I do love who I am. I know I am pretty. But I cannot control how I feel. And I feel I can be better, and it disappoints me that I have not striven to be the best that I can be.

If a body needs nutrients, then so does the soul. My weight isn’t just weighing my body down, it’s also weighing down my soul. And my soul needs to receive the proper amounts of confidence, happiness and joy – things that I feel I will achieve better if I can shed the excess weight off.

Which brings me back to my mission. I intend to lose weight. 100 pounds in one year. I think it is doable. My boyfriend who is a doctor thinks it is doable. I have enrolled in a gym and I have been going thrice a week. I am going to learn more about proper nutrition and change my diet to suit my daily needs. I am truly trying. And eventually I hope I can bring back the real me. :)

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Master’s Sun [Korean Drama] Episode 13 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

Here is Master’s Sun episode 13 with English subs! :) It’s about a woman who can see ghosts, and a man who can stop her from seeing them, with his touch. Starring So Ji Sub and Gong Hyo Jin. Enjoy! :)

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Her Legend [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 14 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

Her Legend (그녀의 신화) is about two women with switched fates. The main characters are Eun Jung Soo who works her way up in luxury handbag industry, Do Jin Hoo the handsome heir of a fashion company, and Eun Kyung Hee the woman who hides her true identity for her dreams. Stars Choi Jung Won, Kim Jung Hoon as Do Jin Hoo and Son Eun Seo.

Watch episode 14 of Her Legend, with English subs!

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Her Legend [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 13 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

Her Legend (그녀의 신화) is about two women with switched fates. The main characters are Eun Jung Soo who works her way up in luxury handbag industry, Do Jin Hoo the handsome heir of a fashion company, and Eun Kyung Hee the woman who hides her true identity for her dreams. Stars Choi Jung Won, Kim Jung Hoon as Do Jin Hoo and Son Eun Seo.

Watch episode 13 of Her Legend, with English subs!

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Good Doctor [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 14 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

This is a Korean medical drama starring Moon Chae Won and Joo Won. Watch Good Doctor episode 14 with English subs!

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Two Weeks [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 14 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

Watch Two Weeks episode 14 with English subs. Stars Lee Joon Ki as Jang Tae San, Kim So Yun as Park Jae Kyung, Ryu Soo Young as Im Seung Woo and Park Ha Sun as Seo In Hye. The drama is about the 2 weeks that a father (on the run for the charge of murder) has to try to save his daughter with leukemia.

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Two Weeks [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 13 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

Watch Two Weeks episode 13 with English subs. Stars Lee Joon Ki as Jang Tae San, Kim So Yun as Park Jae Kyung, Ryu Soo Young as Im Seung Woo and Park Ha Sun as Seo In Hye. The drama is about the 2 weeks that a father (on the run for the charge of murder) has to try to save his daughter with leukemia.

Two Weeks korean drama 2013

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Weather Balance

Posted on 22 September 2013 by Flisha

I want to find that perfect balance of weather – cool and sunshiny but not rainy. In the city I live in, we only have two seasons. Sunny and rainy. Right now it’s rainy.

It’s nice that the weather is cool. My electricity consumption is lowering (slightly!) because I don’t turn on the air conditioning as much, I don’t sweat while walking to work (thereby keeping most of the makeup on my face!), I can wear layered clothing (hides the fatty bits!), I enjoy working out more (no overheating), and shopping is more enjoyable (carrying loads of stuff doesn’t bother me as much).

Then again, I can’t walk my poodle Snowy because he would get cold and wet. Also joyrides are cancelled due to possible floods. I do so love travel and trips.

So. I just need that balance. Where is it???

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Good Doctor [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 13 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 17 September 2013 by Flisha

This is a Korean medical drama starring Moon Chae Won and Joo Won. Watch Good Doctor episode 13 with English subs!

korean drama good doctor

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Two Weeks [Korean Drama Watch] Episode 12 (Eng Subs)

Posted on 14 September 2013 by Flisha

Watch Two Weeks episode 12 with English subs. Stars Lee Joon Ki as Jang Tae San, Kim So Yun as Park Jae Kyung, Ryu Soo Young as Im Seung Woo and Park Ha Sun as Seo In Hye. The drama is about the 2 weeks that a father (on the run for the charge of murder) has to try to save his daughter with leukemia.

Two Weeks korean drama 2013

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