I’ve been getting depressed lately.
I don’t know why.
I’m alright one moment and suddenly, wham! There goes the blues.
I guess I just feel…trapped.
It’s as if gravity is pulling me down and keeping me in the one place in the world that I want to break free of. I don’t want to stay here anymore. god knows I’ve been wanting to go someplace new for so long now- get a tv stand, join the workforce, settle into something different, travel the world with her. Oh, the things I want to do! I wana spread my wings and fly.
I was blog hopping the other day and I stumbled upon a post our friend Dee made. She was recalling the events of the past decade and what she has accomplished so far. I was reading the post when it hit me. In the past 10 years (10!) since graduating from high school, I haven’t done anything but study. Study to finish college, study to become a doctor, study again for my master’s degree…it’s been a whole decade spent on books, books, and more books. For what? For the future. It’s always the same reason, to build a better future.
But would it be worth it? This future that I am investing so much sweat, emotions, and tears in? Would it be really worth it? I guess only time will tell. For now I am just so thankful I have someone to talk to during times like this.
And she always knows how to cheer me up.
Thanks for being there- oweis.
I love you.